3.22.2010

Conviction

I never realized
how much I really hate DC
until the drive home
from an amazing week in the south.
I saw so little
of what I really wanted to.
Which just means I'll have to go back,
and stay a while.

I'm thrown back into school,
with more excitement
for friends' projects
than my own.
I guess it doesn't help
when I have six people
telling me six different things...
making me wish
I wasn't so easily swayed.
And now after what I thought was a solid plan,
I'm right back where I started.
With no idea what I'm doing.
Yet again.

3.09.2010

The Replacement Crazy

Everything I like,
I can't do.
Everything I do,
I don't like.

Everything I want,
I can't have.
Everything I have,
I don't want.

It's not easy
when you know you're fucking up
and you have no control.
The silence
is what scares me the most.

Tomorrow I'm resorting to
connecting the dots
because it's been a long few days
and I need something really simple
to get started again.

For now?
Death Cab and Blink.